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I iust need a place to rant. The woes of a working mum. How much i miss my baby makes me wanna cry at times. Everytime i see other people with their baby i thought of mine and i miss him so much.

But i cant. I need to work. Well sometimes its for the sanity, ur own free time away from the baby but most of the time for the money.

Every morning i creep out of bed so that my baby wont notice and continue his much needed sleep. And when u r about the leave the house u feel so sad cos he is still slping and u cant get the kiss his chubby cheeks and hug him tight. U cant say goodbye but u dont wanna disturb his sleep cos yes my baby doesnt like slping so when he gets to slp, i dont wanna wake him up.

Then its a start of a long day. Battling tots and tots of work. Endless, forever urgent work. And having to deal with human stupidity is seriously another level.

When its time to go home but u cant cos u still have work piling up and not finishing them in time means affecting ur performance, ur bonus whatever. As much as i wanna perform well at work. As much as i wanna climb the corporate ladder, i have a child waiting for me at home.

And cos i miss him so much, i really want to go home and play with him. So its a fact of choosing between work and ur child.

And when u dont spend enough time with him, the guilt of mum will come.

He possibly doesnt want to play with u cos he is clearly closer to his caretaker who spend more time with him. He even doesnt want u to carry him anymore. FML. Then u feel like a lousy mum cos ur child doesnt want u anymore.

So every end of the day all u wish is rush home for ur child. And yest i rush home not being able to play an even 5 mins made me so mad. They are only young once. So he probably doesnt need my hug and kisses in future i know. So all i have is now.

A frustrated and feeling lousy mum.

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May 31, 2018 at 8:22 AM

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我没有办法了。我真的没有帮法了。到底要我怎么样?

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February 10, 2016 at 10:04 PM

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我以为我们可以从新来过。我以为我能够再相信你。结果换来的只有再一次的失望和心碎。为什么要这样对我? 心好痛真的好痛

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July 4, 2015 at 12:35 AM

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Almost 2 yrs and i still cry myself to slp at night. I must be mad. Why am i still stuck? 

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December 18, 2014 at 11:31 PM

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Today another colleague told me she broke up with her bf. Reason: third party. Why is there so many relationship prob? T.T

And the thing is when she told me her story and her feeling. I can totally relate 100% and she asked if the same happened to me as well. . I cant help feeling that piercing pain. T.T

remaining all cool and experience giving her all the advise & encouragement like a pro consultant but in reality im struggling on my own like mad. It was as if I was giving myself the encouragement the same time I gave hers..
REALLY FML

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March 12, 2014 at 12:04 AM

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今天公司里的小妹突然走了过来。说要请教我们一些私事。还没开始说就哭了出来。让我想到了以前的我:|
还不都是爱情惹的祸。。。真是 心酸。可是还真是领悟得早。希望我们都能得到我们应该得到的幸福。。。

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March 5, 2014 at 4:36 PM

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对你的爱那么多,那么伤,那么痛 。。为什么那么难忘?

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July 12, 2013 at 9:48 PM

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